At the gates of paradise poem

I beg you my god have mercy
because the virus I caught it
all my family I contaminated
but what will happen to them
.
I was quickly hospitalized
since I couldn’t be breathing
on a respirator I was placed
in my throat a tube was placed
.
so i was forced to shut up
I was also too exhausted
the doctors to relieve me
in a coma they placed me
.
but will I one day wake up
or in my sleep then agonizing –
you alone then you are deciding
if i deserve to wake up then
.
so my god have mercy on me
later in heaven i want to be going
but as I have always sinned
so hell i especially want to avoid it